Pictured Insanity.

The more you talk, the more that I become addicted to the pain.

Your wit, your style, your siren song will make me go insane.

The more I try, the more you fight, baring your gritted teeth.

I sheath my sword, abandon ship, and you come chasing after me.

My bark is no match for your bite, you mention with a grin.

In your embrace I fight no more, and know I’ll never win.

“We’re meant to be,” you say quite sure, as liars often do,

but I see the knife behind your back, and know my foil is you.

You’ll bury me beneath the land with all your broken toys,

and sing a song about a man you slaughtered like a boy.

I hate how much I love you. 

I seriously want to just crawl into bed right now and cuddle with someone. 

So, I went to my cousin’s wedding today and it was amazing and beautiful and omg I love her and I’m so happy for her. & it got me to thinking about my own crazy love life. 

The guy I’ve had my eye on for the past couple weeks and I talked, and we’re both kind of crushing on each other and getting pretty flirtatious. We were talking during the wedding and through conversation and things he’s shown me I’ve begun to suspect that there’s a pretty high chance he works in the porn industry - not that that’s a bad thing, it’s just surprising. It actually reminded me that him and I had been flirting a lot back in September until we both got really busy with work, and when I told someone that I was crushing, they mentioned that they thought he was in porn. I feel like him and I could really get along, but it’s definitely surprising news. So, there’s that. And it got me to thinking about everything. 

I mean, my first boyfriend was a Canadian drug addict. My second was a Finnish nobleman. My third was an Australian multi-millionaire. My fourth (kind of) was a German fireman, and I’m sort of casually dating a stripper on and off at the moment. In the grand scheme of things, perhaps a guy in the porn industry isn’t that far-fetched. If anything, it could just be my love life’s natural progression. 

Anonymous asked: What is one thing that annoys you about your current crush? What is one thing that you like about them?

Hmm. Difficult question is difficult. Something that annoys me is definitely the fact that he’s very distant and we don’t talk much. When we do get to talk, it’s really not that much either. He’s just… Not talkative, and I am. Which suckssss.

One thing I do like is how passionate he is about what he loves and how much he devotes himself to achieving his goals. That’s like, two things, but whatever. Aaaaah, young crushing / romance.